A few years back, I participated in a life changing 6-month Youth With A Mission (YWAM) Discipleship Training School (DTS) in England. This school aims at equipping followers of Christ to serve more effectively in a variety of mission fields, helps the students to know and understand the things of God a little clearer and equips them to share their faith in a variety of ways .
It was amazing and I grew and was stretched out of my comfort zone in so many ways.
I believed at the end of this training school and missions program that God would lead me to partner up with YWAM as a missionary in the future. I just didn’t know when.
When I finished my DTS, I wanted to go back out, to a nation-any nation that God would send me to and serve Him there. Love people in His name, help bring restoration to broken, hopeless lives and whatever else I could possibly do for Christ.
Instead, God told me no. Not yet. You're not ready.
And then came the dreaded word...
Waiting is, by far, one of the hardest things on earth to stay content through.
It's downright excruciating at times...ya know???
When nothing seems to be changing and all you can hear is the ticking of the clock...
Talk about stretching one's faith...
Is now the right time God?
How about now? Am I ready to step out on the mission field in faith and accomplish amazing, earth shattering feats for you??? Huh, Lord? Huh?
You are already on the mission field. Live each day with eyes and ears ready to see and speak My words... And Love. See my children who are all around you and who don't know who they really are. Love them, as Me. And Rest...
Wow...it's simple really.
But a hard lesson to learn for someone who felt like she needed to keep doing lots of good things to gain His approval of me and not realizing that He couldn't be prouder of me just as I was, resting in and simply enjoying Him and learning to see others as He sees them.
Live life every day, in contentment and willingness to share His love with others.
It's not about "doing" anything on a small or grand scale.
It's realizing it has NOTHING, absolutely nothing to do with me.
It is all about Jesus.
So now, finally after getting this revelation! and learning to love living in this knowledge...
God is giving me the "go" ahead...
I feel the release and call of God to step out of a secure existence and accept the challenge of living a radical existence for His Kingdom on the overseas mission field, with an entirely new and fresh perspective.
I will be devoting all of my time, talent, and treasure serving as a full-time missionary with YWAM in Derby, England come this fall and I will be helping to staff an Urban Focused Discipleship Training School.
I have so much more I'd like to share with you... I hope you will stay tuned :)
for part 2...